The Days

It was though we weren't friends at all. As if we don't know each other. As if I don't exist. We were great friends. We always look as if we were glued together cause we always stick to each other. I met the two girls during my freshmen years at my high school. Nami is a very sadistic girl and Nade is such a matured one. I reunited with my childhood friend Anna who is also our classmate....Nade was transferred to the SECTION A class and met Neth. At Junior Years Nade and Neth was transferred to our section. We became really close. We always talk about K_pop musics and such. Neth is very intelligent especially with its about Mathematics. I always look upon her. At our Senior years, we were Called the (sorry I can't tell it), and so we were. But at that year a girl named Undo who repeated her year was one of our classmate. She has this big eyes and big shape of lips and she doesn't really have a shape. She's like a 5' 1" Ft tall. She has no friends, she came to us once and after one day, she felt really close to us that she thought we like her..But no!!! She always boss me around and even boast about her likes that we don't even care about (its not being mean. It's just wierd for her to tell it to us, so sudden), likes what we likes and even stole my lovelife and you know what's worst? She always copy me! My likes, and dislikes, my interest and my PERSONALITY!!! We all dislike her except Nami who hated her. One time, during our 3 hour physics session. I was joking around Neth and told her she's so heavy that the table where we seating on almost break down, (that was a joke, but the table really is weak) and she got mad. I said it was a joke (Or maybe I went a little too far). She didn't talk to me since. The next day which is Saturday we went to Nade's store (we always gather there for fun) I road the same vehicle as Neth's. But when we got off i was startled to see her there. (cuz I really didn't know she's there too.) I said to her,"Goodness, you were there?" then she smirked at me. I felt bad and so really I have no energy anymore to talk to her. I want to say sorry for everything but she didn't respond. Then monday came I told Anna," That I will handle Undo and do what is right. Our prom was coming closer and so Our Dance teacher practiced the dancers but unfortunately I was not one of them (I really want to join but I don't have a partner. What would I do?) Then they bid goodbye to me. The nest day they didn't come to school except for Nade. They are performing their researches, Nade scolded me for being harsh at Neth (I was really hurt by her words and so I admitted it was true anyway) Even I want to apologize..there was no way now, she's not talking to me anymore.. The next day, They all didn't talk to me.. why? Cause they thought I Blocked them in Facebook. But no, my account was suspended and deactivated.. Nami message me, "How can you blocked us?" I replied, " No I din't blocked you all" (I was using my other account.) "If I blocked you the I will blocked you int this same account." I was really hurt by their judging. They always do that anyway, specially Nami the sadist. She is a very scary friend. She can bully you when you were enemies. Were I thought we could be all fine. I hate my life, I always got this badluck on me. I hate what they did too,. I know I was wrong but its also wrong for them to judge me. We were together over the years. But they don't even trust me at this rate? I always help them but they not always help me. I always look upon them when they are not looking upon me. I just didn't understand how they treated me.. Like a b*tch an *ssh*le.. This is mad! But I love them as much I love my family.. At the same time, it was opposite for them... ok maybe I'm being paranoid and concluding things and assuming without first asking. But they did... And they killed me... What would I do now? Can you help me?

*SIGH*

Every single day of my life. I keep asking myself why am I not like the others. Many people adore them. Many people are always there to help them. I love the way I am. But even so, life is not complete when you feel incomplete. I want to give myself a chance to prove that I can make something out of nothing so many people can appreciate me. Naturally, in this world, many people keep sacrificing but they got nothing out of it.
They are so selfish and greedy, as if they can live alone, themselves. But the truth is they also need someone that can make them feel important.

I keep on typing these things without any reasons. I'm so not gonna let myself down. SEE?
i'M SO HOPELESS!

LoL

I've been thinking about many stuffs!!!!
I just can't figure what I want!!!
Loneliness is a part of me..
I'm not transparent to anyone,,,
No one can see the real

My ...

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Information Sheet on Love (Tech. Wri.)

1. Love does not hurt. Physical and/or emotional abuse are not a part of love.
2. Love is not manipulative, it should not be used to get others to do what you want. You should never give in to demands based on the, "You would do it if you loved me!" tactic.
3. Love is an intense feeling of caring for another person. It can take many different forms (romantic, friendly, familial) but it is always about caring.
4. Although it is true that a big part of love is putting another person's happiness ahead of your own this never includes compromising your values or being untrue to yourself.
5. If somebody asks you to do something that you don't want to do in order to "prove" your love they do not love you the way you might think they do. When you love another person you don't ask them to sacrifice a part of themselves in the name of that love.
6. It is very easy to confuse lust for love. The true measure of romantic love is commitment and trust not physical attraction.
7. It is possible to feel romantic love for more than one person at a given time. Just think, if it is possible for you to love both of your parents at the same time why would it be impossible to feel romantic love for two people at once? Don't beat yourself up emotionally if you find yourself in this unhappy situation. But be sure to remain single and be open and honest with all parties about your feelings and confusion.
8. Sex is NOT love. Love is NOT sex. Sex can be a part of romantic love but it is never mandatory.
9. Romantic love can (and often does) fade. When it goes there is not always a reason. When somebody falls out of love with you it does not reflect upon your value as a person or your desirability.
10. Love should make you feel happy, secure and appreciated.